Summer holiday )':

You probably think that I wrote the wrong smiley, but the )': was on purpose. Everybody loooooooves holiday, but ya know... I don't really like the thought about it... I mean a whole year has passed by and I'm getting closer to ... everything. It sucks. Scared of growing up too fast, I guess. But this year it's harder than normally )': Deep thoughts from me, huh? 

This song by Taylor Swift reminds me of all this shit I'm going through, with all the thoughts about growing up.. 

It's called Never Grow Up

This is another song I'm listening too at the moment. It's by Jason Walker and it's so... descriptive! I heard it for the first time a few days ago. It already means a lot to me. 

It's called Echo

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I am small and the world is big...

Sometimes I think about how small I am (relative to the world, not to other people -.- ). I mean, the world is so damn big. God damn, it's quite scary to think about. I'm not even a dot on the atlas. I'm so much smaller than that 😱  Waaaah...
I wonder if I ever gonna make a change in this world. You know? If I ever gonna do something big. Small things are definitely also good. But am I ever gonna do something that will change people's mind, make things better for them? I doubt.
I try to do what I can to make a change, if it something I think should change (duh). I just donated money to The Avril Lavigne Foundation yesterday. If anyone ever reads this, I think they should donate to them too. To make a different for disabled children. Go and read more about it on:

The Avril Lavigne Foundation

Respect

Opportunity

Choices

Knowledge

Strenght 

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Busy in school

So this week I've been quite busy with a project for school. It's been a lot of fun and hard working, and I think I'll be great when we gonna show it tomorrow. This is deep.. Straight from the heart, huh?

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HIT ME LIKE A MAN... LOVE ME LIKE A WOMAN...

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I Carry Your Heart With Me

I carry your heart with me

I carry it in my heart

I am never without it

Anywhere I go you go, my dear

And whatever is done by only me

is your doing my darlin

I fear no fate

For you are my fate, my sweet

I want no world, for beautiful 

You are my world, my true

And it's you are what ever a moon has always meant

And whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows

Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

And the sky of a sky of a tree called life

Which grows higher than the soul can hope

Or the mind can hide

And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart

I carry it in my heart

E.E. Cummings

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I love you for a thousand years.

At the moment I'm reading The Vampire Diaries #7 and reading always makes me think. This time, it's about love. Having someone that'll love you forever is quit amazing, isn't it? I mean, in books/movies we always know that they are meant to be. That the love they have, will last forever. Like Twilight; Bella and Edward are meant to be, nothing can tear them apart. True love. That's what everybody wants. True amazing love. Someone that will love you forever.

"And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me 

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more"

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Cut Me Up

So a few weeks ago I wrote this song called, Cut Me Up. At first it was about something really painful I went through, but then it became more like a song to get over things. Some people use cutting and other people just have sex, and then I realized that I just write songs. So this is my way to cut myself up, to open myself up and see what's really going on under my skin. I do that by writing songs. It helps me. So my message is; Find your own way to get over a problem or to face the problem, without physical hurting yourself. Write a song, a book, play football, talk about it. ANYTHING! Anything that'll help you. Just don't hurt yourself.

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